I have read that it takes 1,000,000 years for a milk jug to decompose. That’s if they ever make it into a land fill

wow

Our family goes through a lot of milk, but this is ridiculous. For some reason we put jugs in the garage, next to the garbage cans, but they never get thrown out. Maybe I should show some initiative and load the back of my dad’s pickup and take a trip to the recycling……place. I don’t know where that is, or if there is even a place to do that around here.

what else takes a million years? diamond formation? is that how long it takes someone to come home from Afghanistan? feels like it.

 I”ve also been reading my old xanga. that seems like a million years ago. Oh, the things I thought and felt…… how things have changed

how they’ve stayed the same

Why have I always been the girl that is “perfect” and “sweet” and “funny” and “hot” and all the things that every guy I’ve ever been involved with (and some that I have not been directly involved with, but they wished we had) ever wanted, only to later find out that they were wrong? Maybe it’s a simple matter of people changing. Maybe they changed and wanted something else. Maybe I change and become something else. That’s more likely. I have a nasty habit of taking people for granted and getting apathetic about relationships. Note to self: Don’t EVER let yourself do that again. I can’t be the girl who starts out “perfect” and ends up being a bitch.

some quotes about me, 3 quotes, 3 different boyfriends:

“I simply want you to go away and stay there. I cannot afford to be your friend, it is too costly to me.”

“I can do so
much better than you its not even funny, youre overweight, stupid, you have no future, and youre a lying cunt. fuck you, you could save  yourself forty years of unhappiness by just killing yourself right now.
you think youre so special, youre nothing, youre fucking worthless.  youve abused me so much, and for no fucking reason, all you care about is having fun. all your emotions are lies, you think you care about  anyone? no wonder youre parents dont love you anymore, no wonder theyre leaving you behind. you can go fucking die you stupid whore. thats the
only reason anyone likes you, is youre fucking easy.”
 

“You ruined my life”

why do I let myself get this way? It’s a bad night.